Ego Checked

I started a blog this morning about how much I needed a mulligan, a do-over for the day. It was all about me. It started off bad thanks to a bad nights sleep. I should clarify – a bad nights not sleep. If it wasn’t the wind, it was the cat. Both keeping me up, both making me insomniac. Later, I dreamed of Chessie – swept away by a hurricane’s fury.
Maybe overtiredness is howI cut myself opening the mail at 7am. A papercut gusher before my first sip of coffee. Not nice. I still shaken by a cat’s cries drowned by the wind.
Then, there’s kisa…He emailed me yesterday saying, “no gym.  back sorta hurts…” By the time I saw him that night he was hunched over in pain. He couldn’t even stand straight. By bedtime he was reduced to crawling up the stairs growling, “how humiliating!” He didn’t want me to even look at him.
Today started out being a selfish ItsAllAboutMe day. I had a night of insomnia and crazy wind-induced dreams. In the end is was all about taking care of kisa. I forgot about Me, Myself & Moi. Maybe that’s the key – whenever I’m feeling too much Ego, whenever I’m all about Me I’ll take care of someone else.