Eyes & Orbits

Strange days, indeed. I found myself on the treadmill, running like the wind at 10pm. Later that night a storm rocked its way through my sleeping town, bringing its own high wind. Restless. Mother Nature and I are stormy restless, pacing our universes, begging for reprieve.
I love Google mail. It allows me to see the first line of someone’s message without opening the whole thing. Because of that preview, I opened someone’s mail this morning. There is calm after this storm. I am in the eye right now – where everything is still and silent for now. I have a minute to breathe and tell someone I love her dearly. I know she is worried about me. I have fragmented to the point where I’m worried about me, too. But, here’s what I want to tell my sweet friend: I will open up to you and you alone when I come to that place of acceptance. Right now I am railing against the rules of my life. The rules of my everything.
I am sorry hurt has you cornered, too. Orbits, indeed. I wish I could help you. Maybe in helping me I can help you? We will talk soon, I promise!
xoxoxoxo