How I’d like to talk to you right now. How I’d like to explain this fear that snakes around my lungs, making me think of choking, feel like drowning. I am a sea of nerves and awash with panic. I am not good enough for this journey. I have not the strength to take this next step. The fortitude of a fortress surely cannot be mine. I feel the fall of failure before it has even happened.
“Daddy, come quick! The dreaming tree died.” ~ David J. Matthews
They accepted the offer and we have accepted the responsibility. Only now do I think I am wrong to think I deserve so much. Why can’t you be here with me? Be here now to walk me through this thing called a process. You have missed out on every little thing, but it’s the big stuff that bugs me. We are so distant by design. Apart on purpose. How I’d like to break that barrier.
~*LunaSea*~ 
(((HUGS)))
Homeowning is one of the largest changes in life. It’ll take time, patience and elbow grease. I still can’t believe I have a house.
xoxo try not to get overwhelmed!
You have so many friends who will be by your side to walk you through the process. I know it doesn’t neccesarily fill the void you’re feeling but we are all here for you. I wish I was closer so I could actually be there with you but I’m only a phone call away. Any time. Any hour of the day. Any hour of insomnia plagued nights. Never hesitate to call. You DO deserve so much and once you’re in and unpacked and are finding the joy and excitment of making the house your home, you will realize that. I can’t wait to visit but meantime, send pictures soon! xoxo
Sarah~ thanks for the hug. I’m a little overwhelmed so I needed that.
Aim~ no elbow grease needed…unless I need to scrub the garage. This place is waaayyy nicer than anything else I’ve seen (and trust me, I’ve seen a few!)
Bec~ what I wouldn’t give to have you right down the street. Seriously.