Thighs on Fire

hippoNow & Zen Yoga and Planet Fitness did my thighs in last night and I couldn’t be happier. The schedule worked out the way I wanted~ I beat myself up in royal fashion and am thrilled.
First, yoga. I am bound and determined to make classes at N&Z every Tuesday because last night was proof that I need this. I really, really need this. It didn’t start the way I wanted to – getting out of work late, traffic and having to change into body-bending friendly clothes put me behind schedule. I felt every bit the tutu’ed hippo from Fantasia when I ran up to the fourth floor, heavy and clunking, scurrying and panting. The floors are all wood and loud. The class could probably hear me coming a mile away. Note to self: Self! Wear quieter shoes next time!
Once in the classroom and (finally) settled I needed a moment to clear my head and still my breath. It really didn’t help that I was out of breath when I first got there. I sat in the way back so no one could hear my panting like some obscene caller. Luckily, Ruth is really good about making sure everyone is grounded and still before starting the poses.
I don’t like anyone but my husband touching my feet. I don’t like anyone but Ruth teaching me yoga. It’s that simple. Ruth makes it fun. She removes the barriers that make yoga seem intimidating. She does it with humor and humility. Think you’re too “atheist” to follow something so spiritual as yoga? Ruth doesn’t preach. Think you’re too out of shape to even try a pose? She’ll prove you wrong. Think yoga is too complicated in language and movement? She’ll break it down. Think you can’t laugh in her class. Guess again. That doesn’t mean that her classes are diluted in spirit, challenge or education. She just has a way of making it interesting, fun and rewarding. Trust me, my thighs will vouch for me, myself and moi. We worked on warrior I poses. I can’t remember the last time I balanced with one leg behind me, the other bent before me, arms overhead. Do I look warrior-like? My muscles trembled as if laughing at me. Probably not.

Directly after yoga I picked up the hubby and went to run. Thigh killer #2. I don’t know what happened but all of a sudden I wanted to turn on the burners. I needed another challenge so I set up a plan: start with walking 3.5/hr mile and every 30 seconds increase the speed by .5 (incline .5 all the while). I kept this up until I got to a 7mph pace. Cranking. I haven’t been at this pace since highschool. To keep up the challenge I stayed at 7 for another two minutes, listening to everyone involved: toes, ankles, knees, hips, heart…and the newcomer to pain: thighs. So far so good. After two minutes I worked my way back down the same way I got there: .5/mph every 30 seconds until I got to my normal pace – 5.6 mph. To tell the truth, I don’t know how long I stayed at 5.6 before I got to the cooldown. Once in cooldown mode I cranked up the incline. While jogging an easy 4.5 I set the incline to 4. Walking a 3.5 I increased to 5.5. Finally when I was crawling along at 2/mph I was at in incline of 6.5. My calves and ankles thanked me. I could feel the stretch as I walked and it felt like heaven. So, even though my distance wasn’t any different from any other run as of late, I worked in some speed and some hills….and YOGA! Yay.
Bottom line: 3.39 mi / 39min with warm up and cool down.

Getting Back

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Rob Thomas said something about “get it back to good” when he was with Matchbox 20 (or is it Twenty?). I think I’m taking it out of context, but I can see my own “getting back to good” going on.
This morning I cleaned out an envelope of what I thought were old receipts and found a gift certificate for knitting. Yes, knitting. I took it up at one point…but then put it down for whatever reason. I’ve taken it up and put it down a bunch of times and upon looking at myself from the other side of the couch, I think what it boils down to it this: I don’t know what the hell I’m doing. I’m frustrated by only half-knowing something. Tired of winging it where yarn is concerned. Lessons. I need lessons. So, using that gift certificate (thanks, Sue!) I signed myself up.
I’m also planning to get back to yoga. My friend doesn’t know it yet, but her class will have one more student tonight. Me. This is a trial run. A test of the schedule. The plan is to meet my husband at his work after this yoga class and head to the gym. I’m hoping Tuesday nights will be a yoga-zen-run day on the calendar from here on out.

Music Magic

marionette It’s the morning after music. I’m full from Maine blueberry wheat pancakes, fluffy scrambled cheddar eggs and smooth kona java. Content I am. BubbleGum is on the stereo singing, “I Got a Woman – she’s good to me…” Funky. Content I am.
Saw M & G last night. Made a new friend, too. Very cute. I don’t have a setlist. I didn’t even know if Candace worked with one. There’s a lot I didn’t know. I didn’t know there would be cameras filming every angle, flashing lights, and Candy bears. The only thing missing – a smoke machine. Seriously.
My highlight of sound? I won’t lie. Greg. I have missed his genius. It was like a second voice harmonizing with Candance, a second voice rising to argue the finer points. Filling in, filling out. Way out. Making the sound (noun) sound (verb) complete. At one point M turned to me and said, “he’s showing off for you.” Did I blush? I have missed the heartbeat so all I could think was, “Good! Bring it on! I’ll take all that I can get!” Like an addict, I’ve filled my time with cheap substitutes: Carter Beauford, J.J. Johnson, Steve Jordan, Allison Miller…. All great drummers, but their cd-only presense doesn’t hold a candle to live in-the-room-with-you rocking out. Even my husband moved aside so I could watch the heartbeat in action – he joked that for tonight, I could stare at another man. Too funny. My only complaint? My view was often blocked by a bigger guy. I should have sat on the other side of the room!

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My highlight of social? Seeing M & G in person. No emailing. No MyOtherSpacing. It was so nice to sit with these people so friggin’ real, so freakin’ nice, so dear to my heart. I won’t worry about what they say about me on the way home. Never mind. Back to good – I got to deliver presents and catch up on gigs. Gigs! Could I possibly be saying “Greg” and “Natalie” in the same sentence? Freak me out! That would make my 2007 for sure. ..oh, and that one-of-a-kind nativity scene! 😉

Signed Sealed Delivered

My favorite tradition of the holidays has begun. A trickling in. A sending and a receiving. I’ve always had an affinity for writing and opening postal exchanges. There is magic to mail – an excitement in the sending as well as the arrival, an anticipation in the opening, an eagerness in the reading. I know that’s what makes Nick Bantock so exciting. There is such a joy to see, tucked between bills and “to current resident” a holiday card in red or green, peeking. christmas

With address book open (A is for Adam, Alec and Amy), I will organize my holiday cards by personality. Religious born in Bethlehem quotes go to my praying friends. The adorable, sad eyed, beribboned puppy in the Santa hat will be sent to the animal lovers in the group. Joke cards for the always laughing. The special $3.98 one of a kind Hallmarks go to the I-Can’t-Afford-To-Give-You-A-Real-Gift special friends. Once the cards are sorted and labeled I stamp and sticker them. Stickers are important and always have been…at least since I was eight. Snowflakes and Santa hats, Christmas trees and harp holding angels. Stickers are important, but postage stamps are even more so. It’s improper to send a holiday card without the perfect holiday stamp. I always notice these things. There is an exception – sending to someone who doesn’t give a hoot and probably won’t notice the stamp anyway. Hard to imagine but true! My friend Ant is getting Babe Ruth (post Red Sox), but even then I put thought into the stamp selection. Ant is a h u g e Yankees fan.
None of the stamps I chose really match up with the recipient, nor are they by accident. My Jewish friends will get chubby Santas, my Catholic one’s…the menorah. Colorful Kwanzaa. Spreading diversity through the U.S. postal service. stamp

After stamps and stickers I will move onto addresses. This is the most tedious part of my process. Not everyone can keep the same address from year to year. Nine different couples have moved in the last 365 days. If I liked the addressing part better I would take my time with fancy calligraphy, glittering ink and curly-cues. I like curly-cues. stamp
All of this prep work starts the first week of December. I want it finished so that by the time I actually sit down to fill out the card I’m doing the exact opposite. I’m not filling them out as one would fill out a medical profile or an employment application. I don’t want to just go thru the motions, or just sign my name. If that were the case I would invest in a special made-to-order rubber stamp with my signature or pay for preprinted, generic holiday cards that read, “Happy Holidays from the Spencers.” I get a few of those and it’s always such a disappointment. No. Instead, I want to take my time. It’s Christmas after all. I’ll find a picture of you, prop you up and stare at your image until I can write to you. To You. It might be my only letter of the whole year, but I won’t skimp on the thought process. I’ll send my best, from my heart…as the song says, with love from me to you.
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Glad I’m Crazy

church Because I am crazy I got to hear the bells at the church ringing out recognizable carols. The sun was shining and I had a sidewalk…and I had beautiful bells. Who knew that ‘Silent Night’ could sound so enchanting chiming from a church? I almost wanted to stop in the sunlight and soak up the sound. If sanity ran through my veins I would have missed the bells all together.

island pond road  Because I am crazy I got to see the neighborhood I work in up close. It’s not so bad. I mean, I had sidewalks for the entire two miles, no one threw anything at me (or gave me a second glance), and, the highlight of my adventure, I barely saw any trash. No hypodermics, no spoons, no condoms, no beer cans/ Not even a nip bottle of Jack. All the things I expected to step over and around were simply not there. Beautiful.

walking Because I am crazy I more than got in my 10,000 steps. From what I hear, isn’t that what’s recommended these days? At least that it what it said in the instructions that came with every pedometer I’ve ever gotten. I should have been wearing one today because I got at least that much exercise on a day “off”.

Glad I’m crazy.

Closer Crazy

Brenda & Sanchez  So, Monday night was the two hour very special return of the The Closer. I had to bust my butt to make sure dinner was made before 8:00pm. I mean, we had to be sitting down, food in front of us…or else! There was no way I was going to be slaving over a hot stove even during the opening credits to my favorite show (Biggest Loser be damned). No way, no how. Even my husband knows the rules. During the show he barely spoke. The phone rang once, and even though he just had to comment, “someone doesn’t know you very well…” he waited until the commercials to say it! I was in heaven. Dinner wasn’t that bad, either. I was able to keep it down 😉

So – here is the buzz word for this episode: KING.
My favorite scene: Provenza trying to clean off his desk as quietly as he can…

Something To Look Forward To

So, I went to a blog “class” yesterday. You might ask why. I’m asking myself that today. It’s not that I didn’t enjoy myself in the class. It’s not that I didn’t learn anything new. It’s a puzzlement/disapointment because I didn’t plan on making this any bigger than it already is. Note, I said didn’t.Here’s what happened: the class was taught by someone who introduced herself as someone who prefers wikis over blogs and thinks that the whole blogging thing has gotten out of control. That may be true, but why say it to a roomful of BloggerHopefuls, BloggerWannaBes? Nevertheless, she taught me about Vox and for that alone, I am grateful. It handles pictures much easier than Here or There. I’ve already “posted” a dozen shots on the *~new!~* space.
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Here’s the deal: I have the strictly academic, mostly anemic blog on that OtherSpace; I have the running, only running blog on xanga; and I’ve got my happy ranting home right here on WordUpPress. Now, I’m adding a photo-IfYouWill-blog on the *~new!~* site. Yup. One more place to go. Here’s what else I’ve decided: I am going to track allll the charity mail that solicits my address (starting in ’07). I’ll review what I receive in the mail and I’ll keep a $dollar amount$ tracking on how much I actually spend on give to these places. My resolution for the new year (if you can call it such) will be to research these non-profits and just see how good-for-the-planet they really are AND see how much of a sucker they take me for. Any bets on the final figure for December 31st, 2007? Yes, I’m including entrance fees to charity runs.
Another “plan” for 2007 and the *~new!*~ blog is to do an “On This Day…” or “National (fillintheblank) Day” post. This was inspired by the smartypants who pointed out I enjoyed ham on National Veggie Day. I’m curious now.

Shoot Me Now

When you’re not feeling well everything stops. You can’t imagine driving a car, eating a meal or getting dressed. Lifting your head is even a chore. Such was my downfall last night. I started out feeling achy and blamed it on the run. Later it progressed into something worse. Whether it was food poisoning or the stomach flu, it definitely involved the digestive system in the most horrible way. All night long. A L L night long. I read an entire book in the bathroom. By five a.m. cramps had me curled in a fetal position on the cold tiled floor wanting someone, anyone to shoot me. I mean really, Shoot. Me. Now. Instead, I crawled to my husband and asked him to take me to the emergency room. It hurt that bad, but we didn’t go. Instead he took care of me myself and moi all by himself. Minute by minute, hour by hour. It seemed irrelevant that he had a Patriots game to go to later that morning. He stayed by me, loved me sick and all. He would have held back my hair if I asked.

Ten hours later and the Patriots won. I’m starting to feel better. I haven’t moved from the bedroom and I’ve watched more episodes of America’s Next Top Model than I care to admit. I missed work and I’m afraid to eat anything. Ugh

So, if I blew you off today, I’m sorry. I wouldn’t wish my day from hell on anyone.

Not Hot Chocolate

Hot CocoaSo…Today was the Hot Chocolate Road Race for Safe Passage. I don’t know why I was so nervous but I was. I woke with wind in my ears and concern that was all in my head. I haven’t run outside in ages. Treadmills don’t give you cracks in the sidewalks, unexpected hills, uneven pavement, face-slapping leaves, wind in your face, nor other crazy runners vying for spaces around you. It’s completely different and I felt completely unprepared. My rocking husband bought a bagel just so I could use the restroom for one last nerve-induced pee. Once at the race site I searched for S. I wasn’t going to run with her but I knew it would make me feel better just to see her before all the madness began. Not only did I find her, I got to hang out with her, waiting for the IGuessThisIsIt start. We laughed about not so fauxs and Coming Out. It helped relieved the tension. Big Time.
Once the race started I felt bad I left S behind, but I knew I had to keep pace or else. I knew I would need to push myself the entire way. Believe it or not, that was my downfall, utterly and completely. Even at mile one I realized I was running too fast. I knew I would never last at that frantic pace, but I couldn’t slow down. My mistake was I was getting caught up in the speed of racers around me. I’m out of shape. I’m not the runner I once was, even for that briefest of times. My favorite moments during the race? Finding my husband by the side of the road, searching for my face. I saw him before he saw me. To surprise him I ran right up to him and announced, “kiss a stranger!” as I planted a wet one on him. It was a great pick-me-up and left me smiling for the rest of the run.
I have no idea how long it took me to finish. My PR was not important to me at all. I finished, handed in my “tag” and kept walking. Looking for S, looking for my husband. Unbelievably, I found them both within minutes. Did we get hot chocolate? Did we join the post race festivities? Did we search out award winners and speeches? No. We went to DD so my hubby could treat us to iced (?!) coffee and a gingerbread latte. Thank yooooooouuuuu! We talked running and racing while talking to the carseat locals. I think I even found S her future husband! 🙂

This “race” wasn’t about racing at all. I wanted to do something to announce my return to the run, I wanted to do something with my legs for a good cause and I wanted to cheer on my friend. This is something that deserves repeating. I am proud of my friend. Like I told her, she has huge courage – bigger than mine. She has never run outside. She has never run without music. This was her first “run race” and she hasn’t been running all that long. Me? I wouldn’t have had the guts to take on anything public, anything I’d have to register for! If anyone has read my LLS running blog, you’ll know I stressed about running without music for weeks before I actually did it. I literally had to ween myself off my mp3 player! I am proud of my friend.

Hey, S. Did you see the evening news!?
Hey, J. Thank you for your never-ending support. You so rock my world.

My Perception

I’ve come to find out my perception is not your reality. In reality, maybe it’s no one’s reality. Well, except for in the funhouse that is my head. Everything in there is real. Of course.
See, here’s how it all went down. We went for the caffeine. Couldn’t you tell by the small that I was trying to cut back? Here’s what I wanted: 1/2 decaf, 1/2 hazelnut. Here’s what I got: empty and empty. That sucking, gurgling, empty noise, it made me giggle. Here I was, trying to be better to moi~self and I was coming up Empty, literally. They were quick to come back with fresh pots of decaf and hazelnut so I tried again. Here’s what I got: cold coffee. It was really starting to be humorous. Maybe the answer wasn’t coffee after all. Maybe I should have tea or chai. I laughed at the irony and made a stupid joke only Ruby would get, “if we hit all red lights it’s really going to be a bad day.” Not what you wanted to hear. After all, you are the one who said, “I would do anything to make you happy,” one hand on the steering wheel, one hand on my leg. Quick glances to my face to make sure I believed you. Anything to make me happy, and here I was threatening a bad day. Can’t say I blame you. A bad day controlled by street lights? Whoever heard of such a thing? No one except Ruby and that’s why things went from bad to worse. You told me to relax. Okay, worst. I hate that word. I don’t know why. My reality was I had been having a good day until you flirted with the perception that is wasn’t. My bad for making a joke you wouldn’t get. It’s just caffeine. Relax.

Decked Out

lightsThe apartment is Christmas decked out. Christmas ready. Big time. I don’t know how it happened. One minute we are at the Warehouse, buying kitty litter, mouthwash and paper towels, the next we are decorating not one, but two Christmas trees. This was supposed to be a day of chores – changing light bulbs, putting away loads of laundry, using up leftover avocados. Instead, it became one of Christmas music (Babyface, Merrymen and a mix), white twinkle lights up the stairs, colored twinkle lights in the kitchen, unwrapping goofy, beautiful, precious ornaments. We decided my Charlie Brown tree of nearly 20 years was finally too small for all the ornaments collected over all those years, so we upgraded to a four foot fake. I’m okay with not getting the real deal. Some traditions are too sacred for anything but the island. We agreed to get balsam and bayberry scented candles to compensate. This is how my husband rocks: after we had gone out shopping twice he noticed we needed a ground plug adapter in order to have both trees lit at the same time. He went out again just to get the adapter and came back with even more lights!
I’m liking the twin trees. My old tree sports cartoon decorations: Scooby, Marvin the Martian, Cookie Monster, a green M&M, Rudolph and Pooh Bear amongst the colored lights…while the new tree has white lights and “grownup” decorations: blown glass of purple and gold, a crystal angel, a ceramic cat, a shell, icicles of glass. Everything means something. Chessie’s tags, a champagne cork, Now and Zen in purple and green, bells from a wedding, a knit reindeer, a turtle my aunt just sent me, a carousel horse, earrings from an old boyfriend too tacky to wear but perfect for a plastic tree…all of it has a place in my heart. By the time I’m 60 maybe I’ll have three trees!

This is the first time I have looked forward to a holiday so much. Hmmm. I can’t really say that because I’m not exactly sure what I’m looking forward to. It’s not like I’m counting down to December 25th. There isn’t a definite end in sight. I can’t explain it. It’s more a feeling, more of a spirit, the spirit than anything else. I can’t really explain it. But, I’m there. I’m in that spirit. Big Time.
Even dinner had a different spin on it. I made Mexican soup, a la Tyler Florence. So, so good.
Onion, garlic, jalapenos, tomatoes, salt and pepper in a stockpot sauteed in olive oil. Simmering chicken stock, shredded chicken and cubes of avocado. Topping with crispy fried tortilla strips, cilantro and lime juice. Tyler has a conversational tone in his cookbook. He wants to “walk me through” the recipe. Everyone knows Tyler. He’s the new spokesperson for Applebee’s. He rocks, too.

Tyler

Lazy

Scrub the shower in bathroom I. Scrub the toilets in both bathrooms. Wash out the sinks. Wash the laundry. Load 1, load 2, load 3, load 4. Fold, fold, fold, fold the laundry. Take out the trash. Pay some bills. Wrap some presents. Sweep the floor. Order more Christmas presents. Balance the ledger. Wash the dishes. Put away said dishes. File some paperwork. Wash the curtains. Vacuum. Up the stairs. Down again. Make a Tuscan salad. Write a thank you letter…everything in my pjs. So lazy!

Tuscan Salad courtesy of The High-Energy Cookbook by Rachael Ann Hill (London: Ryland, Peters & Small. 2004).

Salad:                                          Dressing:

Cannelli beans             Mustard
Kidney beans              EVOO
Red onion                    Vinegar
Green olives                Garlic
Tomatoes                    Tarragon
Avocado                      Parsley
Chives                         S&P
Over lettuce. We’ll see how it all turns out.

Today was a day of catching up, for slowing down. Watched a lot of bad tv (sorry Tyra) and forgot to eat.

ThanksTaking

I don’t feel like I gave out all that much this Thanks-giving. Really. My day consisted of rolling out of bed and drinking coffee. Eating and more eating. I wished a bunch of people Happy T-Day on ThatSpace, something I rarely do. That’s giving, I guess. I also wrapped Christmas presents. That’s preparing to give, I guess. It’s not the kind of giving that really means anything where Thanksgiving is concerned. At least not to me. I’ve always been bugged by the traditions of the third Thursday of November. Eat until you physically can’t stuff in another bite, watch football with your belt unbuckled and your eyes glazed over. Then what? I don’t know. We always bow our heads in BlessThisFood prayer but I’m not buying it. Do we really think about what we should be thankful for? Do we acknowledge what’s taken for granted? Do we even know what we couldn’t do without? Here’s what I’m really, really thankful for: my life. Seriously. I love my life and all that comes with it.
But, here’s why I feel so glutinous: my father-in-law is actually father-in-gourmet. Homemade everything. Yummy everything and tons of it. Bright orange sweet sweet potatoes, creamy garlic mashed potatoes, spicy pureed squash, traditional green bean casserole with those crunchy onion things, three kinds of cranberry sauce (whole, jellied and orange), airy, buttery popovers, apple stuffing, can’t forget the turkey, apple pie with whipped cream, chocolate cream pie with whipped cream, two kinds of pumpkin pie with whipped cream. Fifteen ways to fat…with coffee. I think I ate it all. My stomach is full but something’s missing. I miss my family. I miss mom’s cheesy attempt at hors’deurves. I miss Hub’s frozen chocolate pie. I miss home.
I can’t wait for the Hot Chocolate run on December 2nd. That will be my time to give back. Tonight was all about the ThanksTaking.

Happy Thanksgiving

Mexican Amazing

Tonight I made “Red Chile Chicken and Rice with Black Beans” from Mexican Everyday by Rick Bayless (my hero). Yesterday it was some seafood au gratin thing. Tonight was so, so much better, but I think that’s because this recipe didn’t involve cream anything. This could have easily been a veggie meal with tofu…if my husband were blind. The chipotle chile powder gave everything a delicious burn. Loved, loved, loved it.
The cool thing about this recipe is that it’s flexible. I could have used green onions or epazote or hoja santa but opted for cilantro instead. I could have switched out the chipotle chile powder for smoked paprika (and the recipe actually called for ancho chile powder). I could have given it a Yucatecan twist by adding achiote paste and lime juice. It was super easy as it was. Here’s the coolest thing: my meal looked exactly like the photograph in the book. How often does that happen?
Rick Bayless

Bayless, Rick. Mexican Everyday. New York: Norton & Co., 2005.