I took a class last night at Now & Zen Yoga that was this side of unique. Live music. Different instructor. New moves. Lots more bodies. At first I was nervous. All around me people were bending and holding poses I could only imagine achieving. Poses I hope to achieve someday. I think it was that hope that helped me relax. There was time to have a conversation with me, myself and moi and we discovered a tight hamstring and a small tension in between the shoulder blades. We spent the rest of time before class working out the kinks and the insecurity.
When class finally started I forgot all about the hamstring. I barely noticed the back. Everything flowed in the fun. Some poses were brand new for me but I bravely tried every single one, even the binding ones I didn’t think I was ready for. I forgot about the neighbors, but never the music. It stayed with me, flowed through me. Pulses of beat, pulses of courage.
At the end of class the instructor asked us to think about our practice, to think about the goals we set for ourselves. I thought about how back in the beginning of January all I wanted was a daily practice. In that daily practice I had hoped to find three little things – relief, confidence and peace. Relief for my knee, confidence in my movements, and peace in everything else. Okay, so the peace thing isn’t exactly a “little” thing. I was asking a lot with the peace part. I wanted calm. I wanted patience. I needed Grace. Basic. Relaxation. In class I realized I had moved beyond wanting relief, confidence and peace. I could now add comfort to the mix. I am ready to embrace something for the soul. Stretch beyond the physical to the spiritual.
~*LunaSea*~ 