What is it about the question, “Did I wake you?” or “were you sleeping?” My knee-jerk reaction is to feel jerked back to childhood and to be accused of being lazy. Somehow, sleeping = sloth. So, I am quick to retort “oh no! Nope. Not sleeping! Not me!” Never mind that a minute earlier I was so deep asleep it could have been compared to a coma. The funny thing is, even if I hadn’t been sleeping that tone of indignation still seeps in, “Who me? Sleeping? Don’t be ridiculous! I’ve been up for hours!” What follows is the barrage of proof, “I was just scrubbing the floor…with a toothbrush. I’m in the middle of doing laundry…by hand. I’m baking bread after just grinding the flour by hand…I discovered the way to achieve world peace.” Anything to make myself sound productive and as unlazy as possible on a Sunday morning.
In truth, it’s been a long time since I’ve slept in long enough to feel guilty about it. The hour hand of the clock has been at a reasonable angle when I get up. Reasonable for me, I should say. I have never been one to enjoy witnessing sunrises. Actually, I watch my sunrises on the Discovery channel to be honest. But, no matter what time I really wake up, get out of bed and officially start my day I still have this overwhelming urge to Do Something. Be productive. Even on a Sunday. Anybody got a toothbrush?
Not Sleeping
~*LunaSea*~ 
Funny that you wrote about this. In my little corner of the world as a child, sleeping was somehow a sign of vulnerability, or weakness, or sloth, or non-productivity, or perhaps something far worse. We denied it no matter how obvious the true answer was … I think I still do deny is from time to time. Old childhood habits take a long time to undo.
Sorry about the insomnia. I have a toothbrush if you really think that will help ….
I don’t know what made me think of it. I just wrote. Thanks for sharing your story. It’s amazing how some things can stick with you, huh?
if sleeping is being lazy….i’m still fine with it. i have a love affair with sleep.
its my escape mode.
“love affair with sleep” I love that!